January 17th, 2018

PAPER DOLLS

In seeking inner healing, I was often prompted to fast and pray.  On one particular weekend as I was praying I asked God to heal the little girl in me that had been so wounded by rejection and abandonment of others.  He asked me to make paper dolls.  Well, I had not done that in at least 20 years or more, so I really had to think about how to do it.  It took a couple of tries cutting them out, but I finally had success.  The Lord told me to write on the paper dolls all the mean and hateful words spoken over me by others and myself.  Words like you are homely, stupid, fat, ugly and many other hurtful words. 

Next, He told me to write all of the bad things that had ever happened to me since I was born. This encompassed more than the little girl, so I knew He was doing a deep work.  I wrote the words rejection, abandonment, betrayal, divorce, molestation, and rape.  The last thing I was to write on the paper dolls was my feelings about myself that were negative.  I filled both sides of the paper dolls. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and said that it was time to have a funeral for little girl, the teenager, and the young woman, who had experienced all that was written on the paper dolls.  He said she lives no longer.  When I was born again, I became a new creation in Christ Jesus and it was time to let her and the past go.  As I forgave each person who had hurt me as well as myself and God, I was then able to place the paper dolls in my fireplace and burn them on a funeral pyre. 

The Lord then said, Now, make a new set of paper dolls!   I cut out a new set of the paper dolls and I was told to write all the good things that had happened to me since I became a child of GOD.  All the words He had spoken to my spirit and what the Word of God said about me.  Again I began to write on the paper dolls, however, I did not fill both sides….yet.  You see I had only been a new creation in Christ for about 6 months.  But I had a good start.  I put the paper dolls on my refrigerator where I would see them every day.  I added to them the words of encouragement and His blessings that I received each day.  They were filled on both sides in less that six months.  Healing came through those paper dolls by His Spirit.
 
My prayer for you is found in Psalm 23:4  The Passion Translation (TPT)4 Lord, even when your path takes me through
    the valley of deepest darkness,
    fear will never conquer me, for you already have!
    You remain close to me and lead me through it all the way.
    Your authority is my strength and my peace.
    The comfort of your love takes away my fear.
    I’ll never be lonely, for you are near.

Taste and see that the LORD is good!